Friday, October 10, 2008

Taken and Sold (-How I Met my Husband-)

Sorry ladies Rorinto Marcus is mine :D ... taken and sold .... actually its the other way round.

Yes, its official we are soon to be a year in marriage life and I am glad to say its all good. I woke up early this morning thinking about life and the best moments was meeting my husband. Before time and age sweep my favorite moment away, here is our story.....

We were not introduce by mutual friends or some party, we knew each other from college just as college mates for the first time studying Diploma in Graphic Design. I came in the second day of this tiny class in one of the local college here. As I was entering the class, he was the first person my eyes caught (although he was sitting in front of the corner of the room which was a blind spot as one where to enter the room for the 1st time) and I couldn't stop looking at him. Boy he was and still is a sight (singing-...its just a little crush...in my head).

Knowing my experience with other crushes before I knew I could never get a guy like him. So I said to myself never mind, admiring from a far is good enough. From then on I just treated him like any other crush, admiring from a far but this time don't fall into deep, good looking people like him was way out of my league.

Around 10 months had passed and those time we spoke only few words mostly the hellos and the goodbye and the smile see you tomorrow. In class I was rather playful to my class mates. We sat facing each other and when we raised our heads to think of some creative ideas sometime we would catch a glimpse of each other and I would wink at them or make faces or talking with no voice. I did do some of these to Rinto and he would later admit that he was afraid of my daringness. Sorry sayang...I cant get ideas by just being still and quite ...

Anyway, it still brings a smile to my face and laughter to my heart when I recall the first time he got a chance to speak to me, he ask me to be his girlfriend...wahahahahaha...I was thinking what bullshit, please don't take advantage of my perasanness....

It all started 10 months later, when one of our friend began passing around a horoscope book during class. I use to like reading through the compatibility section and dream of the person that would be my soul mate....hahaha so dreamy. Well, the book in the end was passed to me and as I was going through it Rinto suddenly came and sat next to me, I thought of nothing of it at that time. I was looking at my favourite section and telling him that I was Aquarius and a Libra according to the book goes well with me..with that he pop the question....

I was stunned and embarrass and feeling my face blushed at the same time. I was like could this be real.....nnnnnaw...his just pulling my leg....what if...naw don't be so gullible...what does he see in me......It was like an hour him asking me. After that I just said I don't think so, I don't even know you, give me time (alalala mau mau, tidak tidak).

For one week after lets just say we said more words then hello and goodbye...but I still didn't accept him. It wasn't until our trip to Manukan Island. Sitting on the jetty under the night sky even the stars where brighter then usual and the chillness in the air didn't bother us one bit (although we were shivering), that we spoke heart to heart about our family. Him mostly talking about his life experience in a broken family that is like mine....that my heart opened up.

One of our romantic dating scene was beneath the starry sky's of Tanjung Aru Beach. What a date it was because a few times we saw a shooting star and we made a wish every time. Nothing can compare with that sight at the beach...although I haven't accept him still....

A few more dates lead to one evening, this time I asked him to be my boyfriend. 23rd December 1998, 8pm we were semi quarter-official. Although when I decided to move on to the next step, I said to myself I am still young, it's just a phase and it's not like we will be forever...I was wrong.

Fast Forward to 20th October 2001 we got engage and finally married on the same date in 2007.

God has a plan for each of us in His own timing.

Thank you, Amen.

Auto Pilot On

Remember the scene in the movie Click ( Adam Sandler) where he press auto pilot and his life went glidding through time. I can relate to that. 10 years is almost passing by and I am still where I was 10 years ago. I admit I am not a go getter person and I am afraid of a drastic change of my comfort zone. So I press auto pilot now and then.

Gosh! I feel like a failure. Sometimes I think about it and cried and still after that I still dont move. Maybe I am a late bloomer....hmmmm. Maybe I am just chicken...hmmmmmm. I comfort myself by saying something will come up for the better but when only God knows.

My auto pilot habits has made me a forgetful person and a forgotten person. I am only remembered by my pass life 10 years before. I am a shadow.

Although not everything is a lost. I got to meet the most amazing man. Amazing because his not only smart in his own little time but good looking too. I got the best of both world-the brain and the looks.

There is a bright side to every story, even the gloomies or the saddess story has a glowing amber. My bright side is first to admit my flaws. Now the healing begins....so let the show begin and the auto pilot control be no more...